Me and mom went to Tammy's it was fun. Then they went out. I thought I was happy but whatever. I'm still fucking depressed. I've been eating like a cow and not gaining anything. I think something is wrong with me. I don't know. I'm worried about myself and I guess I'm the only one. I might break into fucking tears over anything. God Damn Me!-- What the fuck am I even doing? Trying to find someone that can love me. And right now I don't feel any love at all. I feel like shit. Why did I even think me and Danielle could even fucking work? I told myself before that maybe I don't need to get deep into something before it goes on for a while. But I put my fuckin neck out and now I'm headless. I thought I could love but obviously I'm going to be fuckin alone for the rest of my fuckin life. God Damn it I'm getting tired of this fucking shit. I'm just tired. I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs. I give up! No more confussion it's all over! [Danielle you've made the choice and you've found someone else so whatever]--