God, why didn't I realize that was his g/f. I got her confused with another gurl named Janice. I am sorry for that shit. I didn't even know her. Stupid mistake, I know. I seen them today and I wanted to crawl in a hole and die. But I do wish I knew what everyone thought or thinks or me. Am I just the whore, the lesbo, a loser, a dork, ugly, a dyke, stupid, or just everything they all hate? I'm not sure. I do know that I feel stupid and I know I need to change. Not everything just my horrible habit of talking about people. I do that b/c I've been talked about and then I started doing it and it feels good. But I know when I'm wrong and if I get the chance or I'm asked I will tell them the truth. I'm not going to be a little bitch about it. I just don't like many people that's all. Nothing against anyone. They just bother me they're nosey, hypocrites, they don't think before they speak, they talk about other's b/c they don't have lives, don't think at all, and they are just loud. I do want to apologize to her but I just don't want to start anything. Sometimes I think it's best just to let things rest. This is the first time that people didn't describe her correctly and I just didn't know who she was. I talked about something I didn't even know about. And I swear to FUCKING GOD IF SOMEONE SAYS SOMETHING ABOUT THAT I WILL GO THE FUCK OFF. B/c this is my journal. My private thoughts and I don't have to fucking write here I do it b/c I like to share my life with people who seriously understand me. I want people to share things with that we both share. I'm not fucking starting anything. New Year's Resolution:

Stop Fucking Talking About People! Starting today! ^See how long that last. I'm so stupid... I hate me!--