When your heart isn't broken

by psychocutter
I can't wait til night school tonight. Its going to count 5 hours and I only have to stay 3 hours. Anyway, I'm starting to want to get emotional with Dean. Like say what I'm thinking and how I feel. Sometimes I don't know how and I think b/c of my dream I feel like he'd run from me. In my dream he there beside my bed watching me sleep but I really woke up and he was not there. I actually looked around for him when I woke up. I can't stand being this way. Where I'm scared that if I open up the person will just leave me. I know with all of my heart Dean won't leave me but I'm still scared about it anyway. I want to be around him all of the time. I really care for him. He does want me to open up but I'm trying. I need to try harder.--
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hey gurlie. I'm glad you're getting closer to Dean. I say you should go out with him. lol. If you care about him that much. Give it a whirl. It feels great!!! Trust me. Glad you're having a better year than me. I'm so lonely down here in VA. It's not cool.

Shanny
Thankyou for the compliment!! I reallylike your journal to..I know the way you feel about opening up.. Its hard.. cuz once you open to some you can enver close back up. You must really love him..
[Anonymous]
Made me happy to see that you want to open up to me. Also, like you, I have a hard to time expressing myself. Know this...no I won't ever just leave you emotionaly dry...nor will I ever...EVER hurt you in ANY way. I can't honestly see anything we'd disagree on either...we're too much alike. Well that's that other reason....ya know...I love you Monkey...and don't forget it.
[yea]