Love is something we do so well. He's forever until I die. I love Dean so much. Nothing else ever seemed right. But now its right. And I love this feeling. I'm happy and I want to feel like this for as long as I can. I actually forgot what it feels like to be happy and not pretend that I was happy. I never pretend with Dean. If I'm having a shity day he'll understand. He is my everything. I love having him b/c this is a time in my life I'm recovering from everything and he's helped so much. I can't thank him enough for all he's done so far. I'm seriously thinking of speanding my whole life with him. b/c no matter what I'll never break up with him. And I'm not going to do anything to hurt him. So we're good. I don't want to mess this up b/c its perfect. The most perfect untouched thing in my life. I can't mess this up. Its perfect. And I love it. Anyway, my grandma's sister is dying. They say she has only 48 hours to live but I don't believe that. It can't be right. I won't even go see her b/c I can't stand seeing her so helpless. I just don't want her to die for my grandma's sake. It's her sister, I need to be there and be strong for her. I love you, Dean!--