Change isn't that bad. B/c I have changed. I'm happier and free. I think I've went soft though. I tend to keep looking up to answer to someone. Like God. I'm not sure what I believe but I know what I did believe. I just don't know yet. If I did get all religious on you guys I'm not diving in head first. I may pray and shit but you won't see my lazy ass at church. Not that I think it's more important to binge on food til 4 am on the weekends but I don't have to be a fucking bilboard of "GOT GOD?... COME ONE, COME ALL TO CHURCH AND 'FIND' HIM!!" bullshit that everyone else pulls. I'm sorry God isn't on the lost and found list. He may be up there I don't know but I need a direction in my life. I'm lost here. I don't know what to do. I still think the government sucks balls. Stupid shit. I hate them, they want into our minds I swear! I do want some answers. But I have no questions. I do have a lot of change. Shut your face and open your eyes Your whole fucking life was a lie And everything that you stood for Just had it's ass kicked out the door Well I am rubber and you are glue I'll beat the motherfucking shit out of you You're pro-life and I'm pro-death And I'll throw you from the tree And break your fucking neck I'll still listen to Marilyn Manson but maybe I'm too grown up to 'worship' him. I see things differently now. I'm 18 it is time to step up and be a person. I have a lot of things I want to do with my life and now is the time to start planning........--