Me and Robert are so happy. For the first time in a while I'm happy. We went out to eat last night (Peking Wok). Then we went to Wal*Mart and Goodies. He tried to buy me shoes and a pocket book but I wouldn't let him. He did order me a cd. Marilyn Manson: Lest We Forget. Of course he didn't ask me if I wanted. It was our first date when we went to the movies I told him I didn't have it. So he got it for me. He actually listens. lol. Although I don't have daddy's blessing on this relationship I think it'll work. I'm starting college soon and daddy thinks I'll drop out but I know I won't. I've worked way too hard to get this far I can't turn back now. It kinda hurts that he said that but I guess I'll be okay. I just want to prove him wrong. Hell I did graduate when he thought I wasn't. I guess I can do this too. No, me and Robert haven't had sex of any sort. And I'm going to. I'm not ready for that. And it's way too soon for sex. It complicates everything. And it's wonderful just to sit around or ride around and talk. I like talking to Robert. I can see he really cares for me. And it's wonderful. I am happy. I just wish daddy would give him a chance and not ruin this for me. I deserve to be happy after all I've been through over the years. Depression has ate away a lot for me and now since I'm out of the depression I can finally live. I want to live, go to college, get a job, and maybe settle down. And I want daddy to support me. I just need that from him. Daddy is my world and I want to see him happy. And I need happiness too. I think this is my happiness and I love it.--