I don't know whats wrong with me. Why would I let anyone this close so they can make me feel this bad? Yea I still talk to him but do I really have to. I do like being friends with him. I think thats all I want right now. He said he loves me. Yea I love him too but I don't think he needs to be this serious. I'm not the one that deserves this love. I feel it in the pit of my stomach and I don't know how anyone could love me this much. Did I really deserve this? What have done that is so bad? I don't understand all of this. Forgive me for I have sinned....--