I gave all of the sharp things I used to cut to daddy and he did something with them. I don't even want to know what so I won't be tempted to go and get them again. It feels safer in her now. I even feel better and I feel alive now. I am trying my best to quit. It seems like I wanted to have a problem even if it turned out to be this serious. Well I'm stopping so it is no more. Jon will be so proud I can't wait til I talk to him. I've always needed someone in my life like him to listen and to care and now I have that in Jon. And I love it. I've always been nervous about going out with a guy just b/c I don't want to have sex but Jon is different I trust him. I've never trusted anyone before. Not even myself. I've realized a lot today. That I don't have to cut and I can still love. Before I didn't think I was able. But now I know different. I feel so much better about myself. And I just want my scars to heal. I want my body back to normal. I just hope that I don't find another dangerous release. Many ex-cutters turn to other things when they quit. Thats what makes it so hard for young girls to quit and be healthy and safe. I've been through the drinking, snorting pills, losing weight, over exiercising, etc. and I don't want to go back to doing that. It was a long time ago for me and now it even feels like another life time. I'm glad its all different now.--