Here's a poem I wrote to my bio-father. I feel better as I read it. Most of my worries drift away.. Its like most of my problems are just staring me in my eyes. My eyes which bleed tears. And no one warns me that I can't hide away forever. It just makes everything worst. I lay there so helpless, Wanting you to scream for me, As the tears flow down from my face, Looking at you as you walk away, Like you did two times before, So many questions I too scared to ask, For fear of the answers you might tell me, Don't ask me anything as I lay here and suffer, The pain you've caused and from you I receive, I beg to you just to release all of this, Empty feelings and running away, From you I can only run. I'm kinda hungry. Read my life like a open book. Know all I'm feeling and still you don't care. I can accept that. As I just take everything else in as well.--