My eating is better. I read a lot of stuff on it. I cut last night. I've been staying up til 4 or 5 sometimes 6 or 7 in the morning. Wednesday and Thursday I stayed up 24 hours exactly then I took a nap for a few hours. Wake up at 9 pm then watched a lot of t.v. Which I've been doing all this week nothing but watching t.v. reading books and magazines. Damn I'm lazy. Its the only thing that actually makes me happy. Some what. I watch all the funny shows. Like Cosby, Martin, any movie thats on, I <3 the 90s on VH1, infomaertials, etc. I still feel depressed most of the time. I don't have much to cut with anymore. My blades are too dull and I can't find a sharp enough piece of glass. It really sucks. I'm so nervous about starting school Aug. 4th. I have day and night school. I'm taking Psychology in night school. I'm not really going to have time to cut or actually eat any food so thats going to go really well. Even if I did cut I don't think I'd be awake around my parents long enough for them to notice. Thats good. But I need help. I'm going to be falling apart like I am now and no one will notice. I don't want all that stress. It really makes me very scared and hopeing someone will notice my break downs and save me.