I did stop cutting but can't I just do it one more time I promise I won't be able to die. I'm not ready for that yet. I just want to feel that pain once more b/c it freed my soul of those scars. I only can imagine the pain and I don't see it really happening. Why was it so easy to stop but so hard to keep stopping. If only I had something to cut myself with. Be my knife to pierce my heart with....--