I wrote Jeff a letter. I feel really good about it. And I hope he understands all that I said. It was a five page letter front and back. So he better get something from it. I'd be mad if he ignores it like he usually does. That would definally piss me off to the point where I won't send him letter or take his calls. I will give up on him no matter the cost. But right now I really want him to get it and get me. And just for once care. Just any amount of care would make me happy. I really love him and I want him to be a father to me. Not just someone who helped make me! I mean how could you not want to talk and get to know you're only child? I just don't understand it. If he's not ready to do it by now he'll never do it. I'm 18 now so what's the point of wanting to father me all he has to do is listen to me. That's all I ask. No money or anything. Money isn't important right now, I need him to know me.--