Yea. I almost cried today. Thinking about everything I put everyone through. I guess I should just wait til winter and if it snows I'll be so happy. And I can just sit here and hope everyone passes me by with no word and no glare. I can just leave this place and never return. What if all of this is just nothing? Like I don't exist and nothing is real. I felt better until he broke everything I had. I will always be lonely and nothing.--