I tired to spend time with my mom and every time we get together she acts weird. Like she doesn't like me as much as she did before. It really hurts me. But we went to the June Jam at the Moose Lodge and since I'm 18 I can't be where they were selling the beer so I had to get by myself behind all of the tables and sit there doing nothing. It kinda depressed me. Everyone ignored me and mom looked back a few times but that was it. It made me feel like the daughter she doesn't want anymore. And she introduced me to someone like this "This is my daughter... I have her for the w/e". Why was the last part even needed to be said? I have no idea. God damn her. It seems like now she's living with my grandma she can ignore me like she's always wanted to. I'm like a bad habit she wants to get out of. I hate that. And I hate her for acting like she is and making me feel this way. I started back taking my anti-depressants today. I feel like a loser since I'm 18 and can't even go to clubs like the Moose Lodge. God damn I don't want none of their damn beer or company. I don't need their drunk asses bothering me anyway. What is so great about being 18? Not one damn besides you can smoke that's it. Okay My Rant is Over.--