I just can't stand the fact that I can't have anything with this depression. It's effecting my life and my mind. I have bad panic attacks now more often, Although I sleep more, I'm tired all of the time, I eat more than I usually do, I want to be alone but yet I want people around me, most of the time I can't stand anyone, I get ill and moody way too much, I hate people babying me, I hate when people ask me what's wrong, I hate my thoughts, the only reason I want to die is b/c I don't want to live with depression. Everything is screwed up and it's killing me one day at a time. I feel alone when I'm not and when I am alone I feel like I'm too crowded. I can't make up my mind on anything. I don't ever feel like calling anyone. I just want to stay in my room and then I get antsy sitting all of the time and I want to just walk around. I'm getting to the point where I hate people. People asking questions, people talking, people laughing, people complaining, people being idiots, people's bad jokes, people walking pass me, people not understanding my depression, people not being able to ever HELP ME!--