Friday I went to The Electric Lounge to see Jerry about my tongue ring. I got a shorter one Sat after the Funeral. He was a friend of the family my dad's ex brother-in-law. He was like a grandfather to me. I cried all during the funeral, I couldn't even go to the burial site since I could barely walk or see from the tears. I will miss him so much. His name was Jim Naiper. God it's so sad. But Sun. we ate fried chicken at home and then went to grandma's house and she was fixing fried chicken too. I ate it all. I was so full. Then today we went to the Bowling Alley during first block and we're going tomorrow too. I had a all-the-way hamburger w/fries and then before we got home from grandma's house we got pepper steak from Peking Wok. Which was sooooo great. I should be fuckin' gaining weight but I'm still 110 lbs. I'm so mad. Grrrr...-- Poem: "Tears of Death" With tears that cloud our judgement, Of what his life would have been, Walls covered in red velvet, Show the suffer he felt, Of the life he once lived, The sun from outside burns; Through our skin, And our souls die one by one, Right next to him, With tears that show us nothing.