ARGH! I didn't even do anything. Im really upset. There is this little party thingy going on at Yai-yai's today. I dont care if peopel say its not a party because if its her birthday and if people go over to hang and make her feel happy and celebrate i think its a party. There are so many times where Val and I DONT get invited to Dad's side of family get togethers. Im greek and that means all about the family but how can I be all about the famiyl if my Greek side of the family never seems to enjoy Val and my company. I dont care if people say ur just having a pitty party and attracting attention. Just being a baby. But the people who say that have mroe of a Greek family than I do. I used to like my Greek family more for a whiel when everyoen was like hi Val hi Van nice shirt you two have grown. BUt now whenever they see us...Hi Girls Sophia isnt here yet...or Sophia is sick she couldn't come...or you only seem to be happy when Sophia is here..but you know wut, Greek Family, she is my best friend and I can be happy when shes there if I WANT to be. I feel like im being accused of something and poelpe used to tell us when there was a party or a get-together but now I find out after it has been done. Dad's like "So we went to Yai-yais birthday party and it was fun." Our reply is always "Oh" but I think they liek the fact that we seem upset because I dont feel liek I have a Greek Family. Those times where Family was so important I onyl feel that for some of my family and mostof it is my Mom's side. They are all on my side. They are interested in our lives and whenever we say "So there was a Greek Family Get-together last week (I dont say greek im just saying it now) and we didn't go because of little things liek, we weren't there to be invited." People liek my grandmother always reply with "Well I think thats crap. Wuts the point of having another family out there if they dont give things a chance. If they really wanted you there they woudl at least mention it." My Grammy thinks Traci is a witch with a capitol "B" My mouth is dry. I feel like a little kid crying over some other kid getting candy and me not but thats not the way it is. Im jsut sitting here feeling like crud and feeling like nobody wants me there. They just think we are against everyone but im shy around my family more than strangers because if I make a bad impression on them I never have to see them again but the littlest things liek a smiel whiel walking in the door means so much to them that the one time I walk in tired and worn out not smiling or giving hugs it because Sophia wasn't there. Bull...crap. I can be upset if I want to. Saying the same thing everytime im tired or bored really pisses me off. I hope someone reads this entry because I want to be noticed. My diary never gets any comments. I want to see someone else's typing. Then I know that all of my work I've put into this dairy is worth it. I practically just got in a fight with Sophia. I feel horrible. Just a minute ago when i started this entry I was ready to say PISS OFF. I DONT NEED ANYONE. I HAVE MY MUSIC AND THIS DIARY AND MY KITTY. But I feel terrible. :-( I probably wasnt gonna say the I dont need anybody thing but I barely remember my thoguhts just a minute ago. I was too angry it didn't all make sense. :-( Dominic....*sniff* Vanessa