i am trying so hard to regain the strength i lost. now i feel as though im being tested at times, and i don't understand why those who know better are doing it to me. i know im over reacting. i admit it. but that's just my point. im trying to stay happy and not be affected by little comments like that, but i need time to regain my strength before i can take any shit from anybody. maybe in a week i'll be able to take it all, right now im still too vulnerable. say one thing to confuse me or make me sad, and i'll just break. of all people, i'd think you'd understand that i'm not strong enough to baby you or reassure you of things you already know. not now at least. maybe you're the one having the bad day. i realize that. but i really do have to try to be sensitive. it's an actual effort to me right now because i've been trying lately to stop. i don't want to cry anymore, so if i try to communicate with you how i feel and what im thinking, i know im going to break my one day streak. you know how much this means to me. please think before you speak.