i took a nap today, fell asleep thinking about him, missing him, wondering if i should try talking to him again. so when i woke up, i was half asleep and completely forgot that he's not mine anymore. i kept thinking he was until my eyes started to open more, my mind was more awake, and then i remembered. it happens all the time. i wonder if i will ever get over the fact that he isn't anymore. a big part of me doesn't ever want to get over him though.