Ugh, I know I haven't been on in forever, but I'm just gonna talk as though I've been updating everyday. I cannot believe her. She is such a jerk and has no right to say the things that she is saying. For some reason I feel embarrassed when she says these insulting things as if they're true. I know that they aren't because she doesn't even know me. She is so judgemental. I can't help but feel like when she writes these insults in a public place where anyone can read it, that whoever does read it will believe it. Im not naming names and Im not saying anymore than that. Oh my goodness. I don't know why but I have been getting in fights with Sophia and/or Nick a lot lately. A few days ago they slept over after Promotion Night which I'll talk about later. Things were going great when my mo started to drink and Sophia and Nick starting acting so CRAZY! My mom was stressing and she definitely was not being taken serious by Nick. I thought it was Sophia too but she later informed me that Nick had told her that my mom is drunk and doesn't care what they do. But my mom wasn't drunk. She was what she calls "buzzed" and my mom was stressing and she kept turning to me and saying stuff like "Why aren't they obeying me?" and "I'm so glad you and Valerie aren't this rambunktious (Spelling error) and she was telling me to make them calm down so I was telling them to settle down and to stop making so much noise and being annoying and everytime I said that Nick would ignore and Sophia would get all nasty towards me. In the end I ended up sleeping in bed with my Mom and whne I woke up I was angry for a while at Nick because he opened my window and let bugs in but then I wasn't mad anymore. Then it was lunch time and Sophia and Nick after eating ran in Brooke's room and my mom was calling after them but they weren't listening or couldn't hear. My mom called me in and told me to go get them and she was really upset. So I went in and said "You guys. You have to go clean upt he table. My mom has been yelling at you! She's really upset!" And Sophia said "OKAY! Gosh! You're just grumpy and mad at me about last night!" Which was totally uncalled for and not true because I wasn't even mad. My mom was mad at them. Then everytime I said something Sophia would say something like "Vanessa's probably gonna yell at us if we do that!" or "I don't wanna say anything cause you might yell at us and get all grumpy." I got so annoyed with her attitude that I just ignored her and kept to myself for three hours until she left. But when we were hugging goodbye because of course we did (I have a fear of not saying I Love you to a loved one before they leave just in case they die) Sophia said sorry and so did I. Its not that I didn't mean it. It was just that I knew I would have to go back on it the next time Sophia and I talked because I still had things to say. And later that afternoon I did and so did she I think. She was upset because she thought I didnt mean my Im Sorry. It meant it in the case of apologizing for hurting her feelings it was just that I had more to say. So after I said my things, that made her want to say things because of course she needed her defend herself if I offended her. So yea, we went back on our apoplogies (KINDA) because we kinda had a little fued until we apologized again towards the end after we got everything out. After our conversation I suddenly got mad at Nick because Sophia had informed me that Nick had been raving on about how much fun my mom is after she drinks and stuff and how much Nick had been telling her that it was okay to do certain things because my mom had been drinking. That upset me because it seemed like Nick didn't respect my mom and only liked her when she's drunk/"buzzed". I called him to talk about it and he said he was sorry and that he doesn't feel that way and that he understands where Im coming from because all I was doing was stanging up for my mom because she couldn't handle them when they were acting up. So that got cleared up. On the Tuesday that just passed, I had my last day of school. It was a full day because us 8th graders got out early so the day after was the half day last day for the rest of the school. But anyway we had an awards ceremony and I got four awards: The Foreign Language Award (Espanol), Excellance in Reading, Excellance in Language Arts, and Excellance in Social Studies. I hate social studies. That night was Promotion Night and I had a lot of worries building up for that night: 1.) My sunburn wouldn't fade or my tanlines would be really noticable. 2.) My skin would look all gross (it was peeling) And my biggest fear... 3.) That someone would have my dress. Guess what! Emily R. had my dress! And the worst part? We could have avoiding the coincidence. It happened like this. At school one day Val and I mentioned that we hadn't gotten a dress yet. She said I should go to JC Penny and that that's where she got her dress and that there were a lot of "One of a Kind" dresses so chances are I wouldn't get someone else's. So I went and I found this really cute black, white, and pink dress with a bow and a flower and some dots. It was strapless and I loved it. But as soon as I bought it I kept saying to myself "Someone's gonna have my dress. I just know it!" Well, I don't know who's fault it was. It could be hers because she told me to go to JC Penny which I didn't even consider before or it could be mine because I just had to get the black, white, and pink dress. When I reminded her that she told me to go to JC Penny, she looked dumbfounded. If I was her I would be kicking myself for that one. At promotion night I got the Presidential Award thingy. I didn't expect too at first but then I realized that I had gotten one when finishing Elementary School too so it wasn't that surprising. Last night we went to my Aunt Jodi's which is wear I am now because it's Brooke's Graduation party. While here Mom had ended up drinking a lot. I didn't realize the extent of her drinking until she threw up twice on the way home. I was sort of disappointed in her because it was the third time she drank this week, but then again, she is going through a hard time because the divorce with Peter. But I really hope she becomes a lot more cautious. Speaking of Peter. He is totally sucking up. We depend on him for rides because Mom doesn't have a license or a car but he talks as though he's still part of the family. At our Promotion Night he said "Think about this. In 4 more years, we'll be walking up to this school for another Graduation." And my mom and I were like "We?" Where does he get off saying that? He left this family. He can't just leave us financially and legally but stay a family emotionally. No way! That's not gonna happen. He's sending out mixed signals and had to make up his mind. He can't have it both way. Ha, I don't want to sound conceited, but he's gonna miss this family! We may be a bit screwed up, but it's still his loss. Being home is so much better without him hogging the couch. God, I really wanna talk to Sophia. Speaking of God, actually, I am so messed up right now. Being a Christian is the hardest thing EVER!! I don't even want to go into details, but, geez, it used to be so easy! What happened? This entry better save! God Bless, Van-essa iloveyou---Nick,Sophia,Val,Mom,Dad,Brooke Shylynne,Christian,Nibbles,etc.etc.etc.