you say you miss things the way they used to be. i know it takes two, but there is something wrong.. i'm sorry, but you're too weak. you fall to fast and you don't give a shit anymore. you're right, we need this. but i'm afraid of what it might make me realize. i miss the you that you used to be. you used to care. you were respectful and patient and understanding. you lost all of it somewhere, and you've even admitted to me that you don't have any morals anymore. i feel guilty admitting that sometimes when i get to thinking, i'm sorry, but you can disgust me. your words hurt. the fact that you can so easily, so calmly say them to me hurts. you used to cry and say you never wanted to break me so bad. but you have over and over again since then. your heart turns hard over time. your face turns cold and uninviting. you turn mean. you don't care. you shut down. you shut out. you escape. you sicken me. i'm sorry. i never thought i'd see you this way. ____ I don't want to live without you.