i feel like i'm in college with all the schoolwork i get assigned every night. i have to read sixty pages for one class. a class that i failed a quiz in today. i am tired today and i want to curl up and sleep. i have a lot on my mind and a lot to ask for help with. i'm going to do that. i am so sorry. i know i've been saying that a lot lately, but i feel bad. i'm scared that you will stop liking me or realize that the things you once liked about me you don't see in me anymore. that would break my heart. i've been preoccupied lately and i think that's why i've been so angsty at times. i want to do something for you. i am going to try to be a better person with more effort now. i'm just afraid of losing myself. if that makes any sense.