i feel so silly. and i feel like everyone's eyes are on me, and that they have been for a while now. it's hard making decisions when you know they are going to affect everyone around you, and for once i made a decision for myself and i did what i wanted to do. i feel selfish, but everyone around me is telling me that they are happy for me and that i deserve to do what i want to do for once. he told me that im a good person because i always care about how my actions affect other people even when they don't care at all about how their actions affect me. i dont know if thats true, but it meant so much to me that he said that. just the fact that he called me a good person. i believe it. in my opinion, thats the best compliment someone can receive. when he said that to me, i almost started crying. the fact that he can look at me and think to himself that i am a good person, a genuinely good person....that just amazes me. thats been my goal in life, to be looked at in that way. you know those people you see that are just so kind and welcoming and so caring, you just immediately admire them and respect them? thats the kind of person i want to be.