the first chapter of my summer is over. it was interesting to say the least, but now im going to start concentrating on what needs to get done. i need to be there for people and i need some people to be here for me. i've learned things that i wish i never did, but i believe in him. i'm going to be here for him. and i'm going to try and work on myself with him. i feel comfortable around him. i don't need to fake anything or pretend or hide or lie. i can just be. there are questions that i feel i will never have answers to, but maybe one day everyone can just agree that none of it matters and start over. that day's not today though.