i feel pretty happy right now, like things are finally coming together. i was with jake last night and there were times where i said things and i couldn't believe it was me speaking. first of all, it's hard for me to say how i feel most of the time so it was surprising that i even opened up that much. but perhaps it wasn't that surprising because it was jake, and he makes me feel comfortable. he asked me if i wanted to be his girlfriend, and i can't explain the moment. he said it at just the right time. i was actually kind of speechless. i said yes i do, but that i want him to ask again later. i took too long to answer and i wanted it to be perfect again like it could have been before i stopped breathing. this probably sounds so petty to anyone else, but he actually understood me pretty well. he knows i want him though which is all that matters right now. i've decided i don't mind taking things slow.