i have so much work to do, it's insane. im going to wake up early tomorrow to head to the printshop. im going to try and read some poetry tonight. but i really just feel like curling up and watching a movie.

im really quite pissed. i bought some odwalla superfood which is like $3.75 here. i put my name on it AND wrapped it in a dish towel AND shoved it in the back of the fridge praying no one would find it. well someone stole it and they stole my dish towel too. how weird is that? that tiny bottle was expensive, so now i'm just hoping no one will take my bagel bites or cheesecake... number one on my christmas list: a mini fridge.

i'm already trying to figure out which classes to take next term. i'm so excited. i thought i was through with photography but i think i'm going to get myself another fix. i'm gonna sign up for some environment based classes, of course. i'm also thinking about some literature classes.

today i got my paycheck. i took $150 and hid it from myself. i need to save money for my internship this winter.

things with jake are both good and bad. really good and really bad. i'm both his girlfriend and his therapist. btw, its a really hard job, so dont ever sign up for it. but anyways, i try all day to cheer him up, at night he sometimes gets happier if i'll skype with him but on nights like last night when i was so drained i fell asleep at nine, i don't think he was too happy. sometimes i wonder if i'm being good to myself by putting up with all of the tough stuff we're going through. it sucks to say this but i dont think i feel the distance as much as him. im actually quite independent after all, and im so busy all of the time, i really dont get as sad as he does. but i also think thats because he's got some depression issues.

aside from that, i'd say the person im missing most is my sister :(

sometimes i wish we went to the same school so that we could know the same people and have a bunch more to talk about, but i dont know anyone she knows and she knows no one i know so its sometimes boring listening to the other person talk about who said what and did what if you dont even know the person.

awkward moment of the night: some girl points in the direction of my prints and asks if its mine. i said yes, and she went on to compliment it and say how much she liked the lines and marks. i said thanks and said a little bit about it, then noticed how confused she looked. just as i'd thought, i pointed at some other girls print and said "you were talking about that one werent you?" and she just said, without mercy, "ya i didnt even notice yours...oh ya but thats cool too....ya i like that.." awkward turtle. "thanks.."