there is a lot i could say, but i know it's only because i feel protective. i think more and more people are realizing and helping me realize what i should have seen or maybe partly saw all along. i guess it's true that people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones. sometimes it blows my mind to hear other people's inputs on this strange situation. sometimes i don't know whether to be flattered by what people tell me or to feel sad all over again for the way things have turned out. other people in my life say they just don't want to see me be hurt anymore. maybe i can show them how unaffected i really am. i'm not as pathetic as people make me out to be. i want everyone to know that.