there are days that come and go where i am afraid for no reason. i don't want to lose it, i remember the feeling of it being there, and it was so recent, that i know it's still there. it was such a pleasant day. we have lots of those. the littlest things he did or i did or we did together felt amazing to me and i was so happy. i still am. i guess my mind is just in other places. i am afraid of lots of things. they must be clouding up my brain. he's got some of the best advice. it's so simple sometimes. it almost frustrates me that the solution could be that simple. it's possible to make yourself happy. i am and i want to be forever. whenever we are apart, it feels so strange. i wish i could live with everyone i love in one place. haha. kind of far fetched, that wouldn't really work. but it'd make me extremely happy for the rest of my life. imagine never having to miss someone.