i've already decided that all of these feelings are selfish manifestations and i'm just making a fool out of myself, but anyways... i don't like not talking for a whole day. that never would have happened before. so valerie tells me just go ahead and text him, tell him how you feel, etc. so i text him casually just to talk. he knows i'm upset about something, so i tell him that i'm just sad because i miss him. all he says is "i guess i cried so much, i'm all dried up". i don't know what that's supposed to mean. i guess he's feeling so emotionless, he can't even miss me. i'm not gonna lie and say that doesn't hurt. but i feel like i'm being selfish by wishing he missed me a little more. he shouldn't have to miss me just to soothe my spirits. but i don't understand why he'll tell me i'm his best friend and he doesn't want that to change, he still wants to be mine. and yet he doesn't talk to me. when i tell him i miss him, he can't say he misses me too. he's so much happier without me and i'm just trying to not feel bitter about that, because that's not fair. i don't know what i need right now to make me feel better.