saturday night i laughed so hard i almost died. i like moments like that. last night i replaced homework time with jake time therefore i fell asleep with a smile on my face. and now i'm crossing my fingers for tomorrow. i still have work to do tonight, but i just want to go on a date. sometimes i wonder how i could miss those moments. they were so scary and gut-wrenching. but wow, i really do sometimes, and i wish i could relive them and i wish i could remember them. and i wish i could accept that they're gone. oh well, i pretty much have accepted it. all i have to do now is concentrate on the here and now and make it as fresh and new as it was a year ago. so sweet.