i really do read too much into things i suppose. why am i upset right now. when i really think about it, it's so pointless. but i can't help it when i feel like i'm getting mixed signals. saturday night he said the sweetest thing to me. the best thing to me that made me cry right away without even getting a chance to think. i never knew somebody's words could have so much weight. but now i feel like i'm falling all by myself. i want him to love me just as much when we're apart as when he's with me, looking into my eyes. it must be in my head though that it all goes away when we're away from each other and he's busy with other people and other things. oh, i just need some consistency.