so i don't really care how strange our relationship is, because, he said it perfectly last night, our lives are, for lack of a better word, weird right now.

i'm excited about a lot of things. i feel like i'm actually going places with my life, and i'm so lucky to have been given these opportunities. so many people have been saying such nice congratulations to me, not just simple congrats. reminders for all that i have done with my life up to now, and it's so weird to look around and see how right everyone is.. i never thought so highly of myself, but i'm beginning to feel a subtle twinge of pride and i'm going to just hold on to it until i graduate and then let it go.

some things need more elbow grease than others. i need deal with all that financial stuff because, though i got a good financial aid award, i still need to pay some money soon, and my family has none, and my dad has opted out on child support for forever. im just praying for my family because soon, im not sure where we will be living, and once val and i move away, where my mom will be living.

but no worries! im mostly excited, barely nervous, and learning to deal with the stress.