I feel like I need to stop thinking about everything. Stop talking about it all or trying to. I am fully aware of everything I was saying last night but I don't want to have mixed feelings or make our heads spin. So I think I'm going to try my best to not lead on in any direction. Just to stay neutral. I want to be neutral.

I was thinking yesterday, and I really miss some things. I miss going on dates and staying up all night. Going to the movies, going out to eat, coming home, watching some television, cuddling, messing around, and then eating our leftovers and falling asleep with the tv on.

And this is going to take a lot for me to admit but I miss my best friends. Having best friends. I have friends here and people to talk to about serious things, funny things, and everything in between. But the other day, I was just sitting and thinking, and I started missing all of the things me and my old best friends used to do together, and we would think it was so much fun, whatever we were doing. And anything bad that ever happened, I don't care a bit now, and it's so funny how unimportant all of the petty things become over time. In a sense, time does heal a lot.

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