I spent the late morning and afternoon cruising through the internet, giving myself a crash course of all the work I had ahead of me. I found some great sites to refernce to for internships and resemes. My mom told me I really should do an intern, so I'm getting prepared for that. I went over next year's schedule with her and she's prepared to pay for summer school for me; I need to get exrta space in my schedule so I can sign up for News Paper. I think in all my past years I could never get it to work in my schedule it's a class I really need to take. I'm also planning on taking a trip to ASU in the near future. I realize all the hard work that journalism requires and all the competition and disappiontment, and I'd be totally prepared for it if I wasn't so damned unsure if it's what I really want to do. I heard somewhere once that your main interest shouldn't have to depict what you do with your life, it just seemed like ever since I was really small, I was branded as a writer and that was what I was going to do. I'm just not so sure I'm going to be able to make a living out of it. Working for the news paper doesn't really thrill me all that much and I'm a harsh critic of magazines. But I also know that I can't just get out there and be set on the idea that I'm going to write a book and be done with it. My writing is not polished enough for that. I haven't had the time or the help to advance my skills on any level, and it's hurting me now. School is supposed to prepare me for my future and help me get a boost in life, but so far it's only handi-capped me in that area with all its structure and qaulifications. I'm going to continue researching the literary field. There has got to be SOMETHING that really peaks my interest. The funny thing is, there is still a little tug inside of me, pulling me towards a career in teaching. But if I did teach, it would be at a university. I couldn't handle the requirements of high school and I couldn't tolerate the kids younger than that. So, really, I'm back at square one. Oh well. I'll keep tottering and hopefully I can teeter something good. Carrie