I saw The Cronicles of Narnia tonight with Helen and Erin. I find it such a struggle to walk out of movies like that because, even when the screen goes black and the credits roll, the movie doesn't really end for me for quite some time afterwards; hours, days, months...Oh, how I would love to be apart of the movies. Create the magic, manipulate dreams, make fantasies real. Perhaps being behind the curtain might ruin it all...I don't know. But the idea is fascinating and the concept is alluring. I know I've changed my mind so much in the past year, but that's what I'm supposed to do, isn't it? Brainstorm now so I can get a clear idea before it's too late. What do I want to do with my life while I'm stuck in this four-squared reality? Become a journalist and write news? Bah! A novelist? Not likely. A playwright? Also not likely. An editor? Eh. An actress? What a dream. A director? Oh, the possibilities...the work, the stress, I know--but I love it. I've got two eyes watching movies now; one for story, the other for technicality. If I could film my fantasies...You'd be as constantly (and happily) lost as I.... Carrie