I can't say what I need to say, what I want to say, what I'm trying to say--there's always someone looking over my shoulder, critisizing. I feel as if I hear "Use your time wisely" and "shouldn't you be doing something else?" far too often. Right now I feel scattered; got all my marbles spilled out all over the floor and all it's doing is tripping me up. I need to get them together; need to regroup and focus on something. I'm thinking of quiting the play and resigning as Thespian historian. The stupid thing is, I'd only quit to appease others. I'm very well aware how pissy everyone is due to my absense. What they don't realize is how frustrated theatre makes me in return. But that's a vent for another night. Anyways, I'd rather not litter this entry with frustration, though I must admit that frustration is my ruling emotion right now. There's just too much to do and not enough time to do it all... Had my informal Cotillion dinner tonight--Prom gone wrong; an 80's theme. I bought my blue dress from Savors and really did look like I fell out of the 80's. The dinner was a great success and I had a good time. But, like usual, I walked out realizing how much more I needed to do... I'm looking forward to a break and when that is, well I just don't know. I can't even define it, for what I need I'm uncertain of and what I want I thought I had. That's about all I can say right now. Anything else I might regret. Today's lesson: Get done what you can today because tomorrow always adds to the list and deadlines comes faster than you think. Hope everyone else is doing well. Hugs, Carrie