Work was awful yesterday. I go in and right away Terry (the manager I like the least) pulls me into the office and scolds me for typing in a credit card number (apparantly we're not supposed to do that, but no one ever told me that) from a while ago that I can hardly remember doing. So I get in trouble for that. All night was slow and I stayed away from the register because I didn't want to deal with anyone so I just went through the store, putting things away and cleaning things up, seriously looking for something to do. At the end of the night we're all tired and bored and Marissa and I go in the back to see if anyone is there (no one is) and so we sit down to wait and then Terry comes in and scolds us for sitting back there while we were on the clock. I understand that, but I was just like...grrr...there's nothing to do, let us go! So it really sucked. And I had to get that off my chest. Now, for the good news, Kris go a new car! Yesterday he finally got the Rodeo from Katie and Parker; new stereo, power locks and windows (didn't have that in the Corsica), and even the car is a 2000, it looks brand new (except for Kroy's ding lol; poor Kris). OH, and it has a MOON ROOF. Anyways, we are both very, very excited about this (I think Red is excited too because now she won't have to drive as much...) I'm feeling overwhelmed. I know it's summer and vacation and all, but it doesn't feel like it one bit. I'm really sick of working at Micheals and I'm really nervous for college, mostly because I'm so unsure of what classes I should sign up for. Today I tried to sort some things out and while i was successful in finding a replacement science (intro to astronomy) to physics (ew), looking through everything and reading over all the class requirements just made my insides even more uneasy. And after that I browsed for scholarships, but I swear some of this stuff is a joke. I mean, you really had to have been perfect in high school to get these things and some of them require a ridiculous amount of work for a small sum of money. And I understand it's a scholarship and you need to earn it, but some of these are kind of dumb. I found a journalism one that gives away 50,000$, but they need samples of journalism and I didn't do anything at Saguaro in terms of journalism except take pictures, but I don't have any samples or anything. Oh, and I've also been browsing through this how-to publishing book and that makes my stomach twist too. It's being faced with stuff like this, the need-to, got-to things that make me feel so fragile in the world, like I'm not a big enough person to just 'get it done'. I've got to go dig for my confidence and courage before I get anything accomplished. Dad's taking me out later to teach me how to drive manual. It's funny, mom's been away on a business trip for about three days now and I find that every time she's gone, my relationship with my father sort of rekindles in a way. Perhaps that's the wrong way to put it, but I mean I came home yesterday and he had done laundry, put lights on, and we even talked. I showed him a drawing I had done for another children's book and he complimented me on it. This is very hard to express clearly, for only I alone could really understand the change, but it's like he really becomes a dad when he's the only parent. Well that's enough for now I think. I'm not sure what tonight has in store (not much, I don't think--summer kind of does that; it begins with high hopes and big plans and then just...mosey's by). Today's Blog: The other day, Kristen and Nick were talking about name possibilities for their kid (that they will eventually have). What would you name your kid or what do you wish your name was?