Listening to: Seether- Your Bore
Feeling: vacant
You make me feel like I'm a whore
Like I'm the one who's there to bore you now
It's always gonna be this way...
Cuz I can't seem to show you what you want to see
I can never give you anything you need.
I'm sick of wasting time on
what can never be...-Seether, Your Bore
Was I blind, ungaurded, naive? Or were you just misleading, dishonest, playing games? And now I think I get the picture, it's starting to make sense.Miss Go-gotter can't go-get-him and Mr. Go-get-her doesn't want me. At a glance I see; you; her; no me. And why am I surprised? Miss Independent,Miss do-it-on-her-own; why should she care? When was it not alright to be alone? Oh yeah, I remember now; because she got tired of the false hopes, the one-night hook-ups of failing promise, hook-up followed by hang-up, proposition ended by silence, hope denied by some cute little blonde. Used, abused, call me up next time you're lonely. I'll be sure to be out. Miss Untouchable was touched; didn't I warn you about this? Don't let go, don't reach out, don't stop being on top;Top of the game, ahead of the race, above the rest; Safe. When did Miss Solitude prefer dinner for two? Forget-me-not, touch-me-not, now leave-me-not; You did. I'd give up, but I'm done flying solo. One night here, one night there; won't anyone come along and try to make the feeling last?
Carrie : (
Promise me you will always keep on writing, J.
Without Wax - JBN
Warmth? what's that? Through these years the warmth I've felt is temporary and artificial; a heat lamp on a short circuit; one night is all it lasts. I was kissed by the sun once, but now it's winter, dark and cloudy, no sunny face beside me. I know love doesn't matter now, but damn, I wouldn't mind giving it a test drive.
How else to put it?