Life has a crazy way of throwing things at you when you least expect it. Lately I find myself running down stark hallways with sharp turns that bring either pleasant or unpleasant surprises. How much do you have to give before it's your turn to take? And who decides when you've had enough? I thought I had avoided drama tonight, but that's a battle never won. Kris and Kristen are broken up, kristen decided she wants him back and I don't know what he wants but he's doing a terrific job of raising my hopes. I don't know what's going on in Mike's head and I've just let down the one person I thought I was done hurting. And all I can wonder is how do you know if it's real? How can you know if it isn't all just in your head? And if you're with someone and thinking about someone else, shouldn't you free yourself of the torment somehow? This morning I went to school to get my schedule and fix it and what-not. They didn't sign me up for journalism and I had to drop French because it conflicted with band. So now I have two empty places in my schedule and whatever classes I pick will determine how the year goes. Isn't it coincidental? Two empty spaces. Waiting to be filled. Determinents of how the year goes. I know I've been fickle, and I know I've been moving fast lately, but I'm sure of this. I'm sure of Us, if there can be an us. There are many things I'm sure of right now. And there are many things that I am simply waiting to unfold them selves. Carrie