Catchy title, right? Yeah, well, whatever. I need a job. Badly. Life has been getting to me lately. I don't like what I'm doing and I hate doing nothing. But most of all, i hate being broke. I've decided that it doesn't matter how busy I am or anything, I need to get my ass out of here and get working. yes, even if it's flipping burgers. SO, that is this month's mission. I'll get my schedule all in order and find a job. Yay for decisions. I don't really know what to say tonight. I'm in a really strange mood, not a good strange either, and I think the best thing for me might well be to just go to bed. I think I'll go to school early again, bring my laptop, get some stuff done. I focus best in that band hall--is that weird? I just can't work here at home...I don't know why...there's just no...I don't know. I just don't like it here any more. I don't CARE here. At school, I care. I guess I just got this concept in my head that says while I'm at home, it's my time, my time to be doing my things, meaning things I enjoy. good idea I suppose, but the problem is that I can't even seem to focus on those things. i wrote some tonight. I wrote a lot, in comparison to my efforts since like...i dont know...august!!! Anyways, I feel like a slacker lately- cant find this, or that, room is a mess, not prepared for class...whatever. tomorrow i'll get there early and feel all in order again. Carrie