I said I would write again. And here I am. I think tomorrow I'm gonna talk to the owner of the local Pizza place and see if I can get a job answering phones. My dad use to work as a pizza deliverer there till he got drunk destroyed the car by hitting god only knows what, Ate the pizza and came home and passed out drunk. My dad also beat the shit out of the owner but I've stayed in good with him. So I'm gonna suck up and see where it gets me. Because I really need a job like bad. Gotta support my CD habbit. And I can't stand babysitting! I'm a certified red cross babysitter but I can't stand kids. I have a little 6yr old sister and that is more then enuff. So yeah i am tryin to think of places to get a job, Any ideas? I am clueless and desperate. pretty sad I kno. Well i kinda hope Eric will offer me the money again cuz I'll take it. I mean all I have to do is suck on his dick for 5mins, take the cash and thats it. Can;t go wrong, rite? I am that desperate to get that damn cd cuz I kno the bitch that's biddin on it is gonna wait till the day it ends to put in her final bid and I will be on all day guarding it with my life cuz thats how bad i want it. I love Timothy that much that I'm willing to lower my standards for a day. Thanksgivin is gettin closer which means the Seattle trip is drawin near. I HATE Flying. Ya kno, I'm kinda a mix of claustrophobia and agorapobia, I cant be in large wide open spaces or small spaces for a long period of time. I go nuts. So yeah this is going to be so much fun. Spending a week away from scott, I can't call him unless I'm near a payphone which will be never. I can't check my email or write in my journal! It's gonna suck ass majorly. So I'm stockin up on cds and gonna need to buy a new player, Lucky me eh. But like yeah i thought I'd write, what the hell, eh? I don't do anything anyways I'm thinkin of how I should be doing my hw. But ya kno I'm just too lazy and it's all due tomorrow hehe. I'll be up till like 3am doin it and be up at 6am to take a shower ect ect. Fun Fun. Anyways That's all for the night. I'll write tomorrow about what happens with Eric. ~*~*~*~*~*~Peace*~*~*~*~*~*~ Self Injury Free: 61days, 2 Months, Wow I haven't cut or purged in 2 months! Go me!