Depressed as usual. I need to get a fucking life I've been deprived of a good sleep for the past 2 days and I'm still up. Letz see....Ummmm I found out that I'm getting an award for Harbinger. so Liek here's my sched for Tuesday.... Get up at 6:30am take a shower, check email, eat breakfast, locate school stuff. Be at skool by 7:55. Graduation practice till about 11ish go home and be back at like noon for the awards. We cant hang around the school because 5,6,7th grades still have class (Suckers)Then Wednesday we have practice till 11ish and then liek at 6:30pm I have to go back (again!) for Graduation and then no more HMS...YAY!!!!!! Being a freshman is gonna suck tho cuz yeah youre at the bottom again and ya have to work ya way up to the top. I can't believe that like I have to be getting a job soon and I'll be driving next year. Life is moving by so fast! 3 more years and I'll be 18......I'm amazed.....I feel so fucking old....lol. I can't wait to get out of this hell hole..... Cuz like there's 207 kids in my grade. 171 are graduating. 71 are white. I'm not racist but my dad is. And he's like all pissed because my skool has such low standards and like for High skool TFS isn't that great they have a lot problems N stuff and I kinda wanna go there because I know that I can pass those classes and I'm looking forward to making new friends from other schools and learning German. Well now My dad wants to send me to Munster high and I don't want to go there. Yeah My school has a lot of Afro Americans, Drugs, sexual harrassment and out of control kids but Munster just has High class Snobby rich White kids who do more drugs then the Seniors at TFS. What'd be the difference? I mean the color of your skin doesn't really matter. Every school has their problems. I've adjusted to my school. Hell I've been in class with some of the same kids since Kindergarden. i wanna graduate from High skool with them. I don't make friends easily and Munster has high standards I'd never make it there. If I'm switching schools then I wanna move. My dad wants to but my mom refuses. I wanna get the hell out of this town. I've been in Lansing since I was 3. 11yrs later I've seen and done everything there is to do in this shitty ass place. I wanna move, make a fresh start and talk to no one. I'd like to go to Boarding or Military school but my mom won't let me so I'm gonna sign up for an exchange student program. that'd be kinda fun I guess. ooooo Today I saw "The Day After Tomorrow" at Showplace 12. That movie kicks ass! The special effects make you feel like you're right there in it. It's a little far fetched with the Twisters and 2nd ice age. But like I was watching the Discovery channel today and they had on about an Astroid that's gonna destroy the earth in less then a 1000yrs I could careless since I'll be dead by then...lol..... Neywz Me bored. I'm listening to my Lennon Legend cd. I like the song "Watching the Wheels" Skitzy was talkin about it like awhile ago and i never payed attention till I noticed it was on my cd. (hehe) "People say I'm lazy dreaming my life away" That's me! lol....newyz thats all for tonight. Hopefully will add more entries in the near future.... Much Eagles Love -AmyMarie-