ugh i'm a horrible girlfriend, I'm such a bitch. yet Ryan stays with me.....I wonder why. I mean today i find out damming evidence that Pris wants to break us up and he doesn't expect me to be pissed, n then he gets pissed because my friends are protective! OMFG excuse me dear......When you're not around....my friends protect me....Proven fact: Chicks do not like their bfs havin chick friends.....especially obsessed preppie obnoxious bitchy 13yr olds! ugh I wish He'd understand me but he doesn't........damn I love him so much....goddammit i dont want to fuck up the best thing in my life....i always do......I want this time to be different. dammit i dont want to fuck up....Im cursed....he says its him...but its me.....I'm like a plague. I destroy everything.......i've destroyed myself....yet i havent died yet grrrr.... I hate life....but love love..... -AMP-