I dont want to live....The large boulder has fallen and it's taken me with it.... I haven't done any of my skool work lately. I have an F in Reading and a C- in LA. I don't want to fight anymore. Last Night was one of the hardest nights i've spent alone. I wanted to break down and cry. I feel like my life is falling apart. I have no energy. I have so much work to do but I just wanna sleep. I keep thinking about Scott. He's been so happy go lucky and sweet. How do I tell him that I don't want to continue on in life? I love him so much. I owe him my life. He's always been there when I needed him. We've spent countless hours talking about things. But like now I don't want to bring him down. i'm sitting here drinkin a ice house beer that i stole from my dad...I hate my life.....Gawd....I fucking Love Scott but I want to die....talk about being torn in 2.... And Like now I am majorly pissed at Mike. He told me that he threatens to commit suicide to get his way....That totally fucking pisses me off!!!! I hate ppl that do that shit. Gives the actual suicidals a bad name. I hope to fucking god he commits suicide....do us all a favor. there's enough assholes on this planet.... *Goes off into the woods to cry*