Still here....dont kno why am so suicidal....It's almost as bad as the day i got raped...Fightin it every step of the way though. Hopin it'll go away. I hate sittin in class thinkin of ways to commit suicide. Dude I ran into the fuckin vaccuum this morning....it hurt.... Mom still hasn't noticed Suzybelle or Little Nicky.....When she does....she'll be goin nuts..... dont wanna go to skool....Gah I hope this depression goes away.....I keep thinkin' about Nick so it's not so bad but liek....I dunno its just such a pull towards suicide....I fuckin hate depression.... well I have to find my socks and put on some make up......its a doggy day....hoodie and jeans cuz it's fuckin cold outside.... -Marie-