Call me a fucking dumbass but i'm meeting this creepy dude tonight. I dunno how old he is....He said he'd pay me for whatver I'd do. i mean come on.....I'm lonely Just lookin for fun. I just hope he doesn't rape me! lol....Oh well........I'm still getting over scott ya kno. Guess I wanna put myself in danger so maybe some one will put me out of my misery.....If Anything happens....I can't tell anyone.....oh well.......man I hate the fact that Scott and I arent friends anymore...I miss telling him everything and getting his advice. Hey at least i'm not crying or carving his name in my arm anymore ya kno? Alwyz will love him tho....