I never realized how easy it is to emotionally detatch yourself.....You feel so powerful when you have that noose around your neck.....Being encouraged makes it seem 10X easier.... So close tonight.....came so close....Maybe I shall continue it later...I feel no pain. It's just peacefullness....Have never felt like this before....I Can do anything. I have no fear against death..... The encouragment continues......Motivation and energy builds....More will to pull it tighter...I love psychos....Do it...do it...do it....do it.....Ah shall I heed Death's call? Or walk the other way for once? We shall see...... 4th entry today....