Gawd it's been a fucking weird week! Liek yeah to start the week out. Monday I think it was. The school nurse grabbed me out of the hallway on my way to shop class. and liek she shut all the office doors and sat down and asked if I was a cutter. I'm like WTF. I guess some one told or or said something. I lied and said I hadn't cut since 6th grade and I showed her the scars on my wrist. Ha the dumb bitch didn't think to check mah legs....MWUHAHAHAHAHA I smarter heh. Just a whole shit load of weird shit has been happening. I swear I've gained 10lbs from not having diet coke. I totally need to buy some. I'm lookin forward to a good summer. I can only hope everything will go fine. But liek yeah I've been suicidal. Trying to salvage what little happiness there is. I seriously don't wanna fuckin live another nite. I'm thinkin about liek sending Skitzy the lyrics to "Please Rember me" and then takin an od and that be it. I still Love him. I always will. He IMmed me the other day and we talked for awhile. he made me smile for once. damn I Love him.....But there is no future. At least not one for me.......I'm gonna go cry and cut myself Nite