Still here....yet again My fuckin left wrist and legs hurt like hell.....Kinda got into cutting mode.....and ummmm......yeah.....wrist hurts. Talked to Allan last night. He totally understands a lot and kept askin how I was. Coulda said a lot.....But I didn't. I know he just wants to help, but....it's like. I dunno. Kept waking up with Nightmares this morning. Them fuckin' flashbacks are gonna haunt the hell out of me. Few ephedra pills....and I'll be numb...... I pray for death........ Yet he does not come RaZoR wHoRe "She prays to the heavens to try to save her soul.....Cause the sweet little angel is close to letting go..."