Still depressed...hating life. A lot of pain, A lot of suffering. Yesterday was Hell.... I woke up half dead, Almost blacked out in the shower from the mold. Couldn't find any good clothes. Felt homesick the minute I walked into school. It was downhill from there. I saw Mrs. G in the hallway. I wanted to say hi but I just kept looking at the ground when I walked past her. I can't seem to look anyone in the eyes these days. Use to be the master of looking some one in the eyes and lying straight to their face. So yeah anyways we had that gay ass Assembly. I wasn't even listening. Just to damn depressed. Was mostly thinking of suicide methods. Then like the dude mentions suicide....Don't ask.....I just felt people's eyes on me. Everyone thinks I'm suicidal because I cut myself. I'm Suicidal anyways but Cutting isn't my chosen method. Rest of the day is kinda blur. 9th period i bled thru. My period came and I felt even worse. Didn't dress for gym probably gonna get a detention for that. I really don't care. and Shop class was just hell. I am so fucking miserable lately. I just want to die. That's it. Just to have a nice peaceful death. I can't handle this stress. There's a chance I could fail 8th grade. Dammit I just want to die. To fucking get this life over and done with.... I'm going to bed....Fuck this